Things aren't all butterflies and rainbows for me right now and it really sucks. I've got a lot on my mind and a lot on my heart.
Some morning it's all I can to get out of bed and make it to work. What doesn't help is that work makes me hate life just a teensy bit more than it should. I love but seriously hate my job anymore. I really didn't want to put this out there but I've re-written this blog post 3 times and every time it's just kinda slipped out of my fingers. I won't be sharing this post on my personal fb.
I know that if you hate your job you should find a new one. But is it really that easy? All I know is the restaurant industry. And part of me loves it. But part of me wants to have a normal schedule of 8-5. I want to come home and see my kid at night. I want to cook dinner and have a routine.
I can't decide if I should follow through with the whole pharmacy tech thing. What if I hate it? What if it's super hard and I don't get it? I have so many what ifs and I need to decide what to do by the end of the month. Because if I do go, then I need to stick with OG because well duh, let's not rush out and get a new job and start a new school at the same time.
Then there's the custody issues we're trying to work out. I can't mention a whole lot about them because we're not close to being finished. However, some of the things that could happen scare the piss out of me.
I'm not trying to be miserable. It's just a bad time right now. It'll eventually get better....right?