My Womanifesto

I was crusing through blog land when I came across a wonderful post by Miss Angie about a womanifesto. And I thought it was pretty fucking special.

A womanifesto is your declaration of yourself about being a woman. Sorry dudes reading this!

wo·man·i·fes·to
noun \ˌwo-ma-nə-ˈfes-(ˌ)tō\

A written statement declaring publicly the intentions, motives, and views of its female author. May include themes of empowerment, independence, self love, consciousness, affirmation, and individual acceptance; your positive beliefs about yourself. Created to give self-described definition in regards to the innate beauty inside of every woman. Yes, even you.

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I  think that sums it up better than I could. If you want to know the whole story behind this you need to click the source button up there ^.

I'm Chloe.
I'm 21...
Feel like I need to figure it all out.

I don't believe you can love too much.

I believe.

Stars and believe are my inspiration.

I love love. 

Making people happy is what I'm here to do.

I am a momma.

Yes, a young one.

It's not hard in the sense you think, like money,

it's hard to be the adult.

I am curvy.

I am an old soul in some ways.

I am a crier. Happy, sad, hurt...I cry.

I'm overly emotional.

And that's ok.

I'm sensitive.

I'm a driver. I will drive for hours and not mind. It's a

place to find solace and search my soul.

I think I'm simple but maybe I'm complex.

I want to be loved for me.

I need to realize I will NOT be perfect.

And be ok with it.

I don't have to prove my beauty by what I wear.

I can wear sweats and be ok with it.

I am not modest. Deal with it.

I will worry less.

I have to.

I will never grow up.

I can be immature...

I know I have matured.

I need to love myself as much or more so than I do other people.

Not everything I do/say requires an apology.

I forgive too much.

I'm beautiful.
I'm smart.
I'm the only one like me.

And me.

I also thought that this would be a great Friday's Letter post. Boom! Way to be productive me. The post is a letter for everyone, myself included!    

"22 before 22" Update 1

So I've seen a lot of  people posting about their version of their life lists lately. I figured now was as good as time as any to let y'all know how mine is going.

And the verdict is ....Not very well! I don't think I've done one thing on the list yet. Here's my original post.

Ok, I looked it over and I've gotten close to doing a lot of these things.

T and I were supposed to catch lightning bugs tonight per her request but she got sick :(. Blah!

I'm maybe going to add to my star tattoo when I go see my Auntie in about 9 days. I really hope we do add to it. Oh yeah, she has the same star tattoo! We got them together last year after a really great weekend. It means a lot to me and I smile every time I look at it.

They aren't huge or anything but we like them! We just are ready to add to it. I really like this picture

I know that it's different then ours in terms of color but I think we could manage something like this. My aunt likes it too.


I did start running a little bit before Tea's school was over.I was starting to do pretty good for myself about three weeks in. That's when her school let out for the summer though! So now, I don't really know what to do with her while I run for awhile. I'm trying to fiure it out.

And as for drinking less soda.....well I've done pretty effingg amazing! I just started drinking tiny bits again but I quit drinking it all together about 3 weeks ago. I was proud of myself at first but when I started to drink more and more mt dew each day I've gotten a little irritated with me! I need to stop all together again. I know I can do this!

OK....maybe I have done better with my list then I thought. At least I'm making plans for these things now. When I wrote them they were all just things I hoped I would do. I love that I can see how much changing has been done. It makes me feel good.

This was only the first part and the second part will come later in the week. It just seemed like a lot to make in one post and I've got a poor sick little person to cuddle with!

See ya later......And All That Good Stuff.

There's a Rainbow on the Other Side....

I'll admit it....I really don't like Monday.

It always seems to screw me over and bad things always seem to happen.

At least that was the case with yesterday.

I could write a book list everything

that went wrong yesterday, but we'd be here forever.

I will tell you one thing though. My phone went to iPhone heaven.

EEEEEKKKKKKKK.

My heart is broken.

Yes, I know I shouldn't be so in love with technology but face it,

I am.

It was just a crappy day over all...and then I saw this

you see those faint colors in the sky? That's a rainbow...yeah I know hard to tell right. Gotta love cameras on phones. Sad part is, I had my actual camera on me but I never remember to use it.

Anyway

The point here is that after the crappy days, there will be a rainbow at the end. This was just my sign. So, I'll make today a good day. And hopefully tomorrow too...but I'm just focusing on what's right here and now.

No need to worry about tomorrow right now.

Even when it feels like you can't take anymore, it isn't over until you see your rainbow.

"Everything will be alright in the end. If it's not alright, it's not the end."

-unknown

22 before 22

I always want to start off my blogs with the word "so". I find it kinda weird.

Anyway, what I'm about to do seems very popular along the blogging world right now. I thought that I would like to take part in it.

22 before 22 is just what it sounds like..22 things I want to do before I turn 22. Here we go.

22 before 22

1. Quit Smoking - done!

2. Move out

3. Start running

4. Add to my star tattoo

5. Catch lightning bugs with my daughter

6. Go see a movie by myself

7. Roadtrip

8. Volunteer with my daughter

9. Take a picture every day for a month (longer if I can)

10. Take T to Silver Dollar City

11.This one is for me <3

12. Learn how to have a better blog

13. Take a class just because

14. Karaoke

15. Plan a surprise party

16. Go to KC with B and enjoy a movie at a certain theatre

17. Drink less soda/more water

18. Develop a Reading List

19. Try different beers

20. Go camping with B and our friends

21. Believe in something

22. Have a makeover at Ulta (vain but oh well!)

What is on your list? Feel free to share in the comments and/or write it in your blog. If you write it leave me the link so I can visit it. Hope you find this inspiring...I know I did when I first saw one.

Happy listing.....and all that good stuff!

More than 24 Hours :)

So, as of 9:30 am this morning I have been cigarette free for 24 hours! A whole day. That really makes me happy. I have only smoked for three years, so to me that made it a little easier.

In just this year, both my aunt and one of my uncles have quit smoking. My aunt used Chantix to quit and my uncle just quit cold turkey. She had smoked for 20+ years, so I was really excited for her when she finally made the decision to quit. My uncle had smoked for about 10 years, again, being really happy for him. Especially because he just quit cold turkey. I don't think I would have the will power to do that. I chose to do Chantix like my aunt.

Chantix is a smoking cessation pill that helps you wean yourself off of cigarettes slowly. It starts out with .5 mg pill once a day for three days and then you move on to .5 mg pill twice a day for the rest of the week. After that week, you start to take a 1 mg pill twice a day and continue on for about 12 weeks or for however long you feel that you need it. It sends signals to your brain receptors telling them that you don't want or need nicotine. It makes cigarettes taste and smell terrible. I got used to it though and continued to smoke. Chantix is known for some side effects such as depression, weight gain, vivid dreams or nightmares, and fatigue just to name a few. I know those all sound terrible ( to me they were..more on that later), but in the long scheme of things it's worth it to quit smoking.

However, I felt that Chantix and I just weren't working. Yeah, it made the cigarettes taste bad, but I could still smoke one. Actually, I could only smoke half of one, good for me! The pill helped me gain 4 pounds which I'm pretty pissed off about. I have some body issues and this just wasn't something I wanted to deal with. It also made me sick when I started taking the higher doses. I actually threw up the other night at work because of it. That was the final straw for me. The same day I quit smoking was the same day I quit Chantix. And I already feel a little bit better. Now it's all on me. I ran out of cigarettes and just promised myself not to go buy another pack. The end.

Now, more to the back story that helped me quit. I had already said I was going to quit sometime this year, but wasn't quite sure when. I was just going with the flow and I would quit when the time felt right. One day I was at lunch with somebody very close to me when they told me that they had lung cancer. That was my moment. I told them that I was going to quit. Now, there lung cancer is very small and they have amazing odds. It still made me really sad hearing all that. That's my motivation right there.

This is a list of things that happen to your body so long after you quit smoking. I have to say, I feel like I have more energy since that time yesterday. I don't know if quitting smoking is the reason, but I'm gonna pretend and say that it is. lol.

For more information on quitting there are many things you can do. Talking to your doctor is a good start. you have to do this if you want to get on Chantix because it's prescription only. There's a lot of good websites to help you quit. www.quitsmokingsupport is a a good site that I found. As is www.smokefree.gov. However, the most important thing to remember when quitting is always ask for help from family and friends. Anybody that puts you down for trying to quit isn't a friend. They're an asshole.

So...go ahead and quit. You'll feel so much better. I encourage you to think about it. Come here for help and encouragement if you want it. Just take the time to think about it at least.....and all that good stuff =)