Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Being a Dog Momma

I'm about to be crazy here for a second...but you should be used to that. I'm about to go all crazy dog mom.

Here lately I've had this sad place in my heart. I keep it hidden because that's what I do. Y'all know that I got a new puppy in June. Miss Olivia. And I love her very much.

However, I feel like the worst dog momma to Trixie. I feel that she thinks I'm replacing her. I don't know what she thinks obviously, but I can't help but think it. I stay at Blake's a lot and I'm always with Olivia. I feel that she thinks I'm picking Olivia over her. Before we got Olivia I'd bring Trixie over to his house to stay the night too so that we could still cuddle and have our time. I just can't do it anymore. I know that Trix doesn't like Olivia and I won't force her to be around her. I can't do that. But every night before I go to bed, I think about her. And I think about how much I miss her and I want to cuddle with her. When I do go home, she's attached to my side the whole time. She never used to do this so I know that she misses me too. What's a girl to do?

See also why I don't think I could ever have two children. But that's entirely different story.

Trixie is 10. And we all know that dogs don't live as long as we do, unfortunately. And I'm really scared of something happening to her. I have really bad anxiety about it. What if something happens and I didn't feel like I spent enough time with her. Seriously I'm about to cry just writing this.

Basically, I'm over obbsessed with my baby. And I worry about her all the time. Ugh. I can't believe I just wrote a post about how much I feel like I'm doing wrong to my dog. When I'm home with her I feel the need to take like 156468 pictures of her, even though she hates it.

  Told you I'm a crazy dog momma.

p.s. She has the best worst dog breath in the world. I decided that tonight when I went home and she gave me all the best lovings in the world.


Jordan said...

Aww it's normal to feel that guilt but they know you love them! Enjoy the time you have left with her and try not to worry too much about it. Chances are she thinks you are the best human in the whole world.

Stephanie said...

Yeah Hawkeye would never tolerate a sibling. I couldn't get another and then Hawkeye hates it.

Amanda - Voyage of the MeeMee said...

I wish MORE people loved their animals as much as you do!!!!!!

Erin said...

such a cutie pie!!