So I entered Blake and I in a local contest for the cutest couple blah blah blah. I don't normally do that kind of thing but the winning couple gets a date night out of it. So I figured why not. You were supposed to use a cute picture and I used a simple one because it's just "us". And then I was supposed to write something about us but I suck at that. I can be all mushy gushy but I can't write it in words. Why am I a blogger again?
You see, there's a reason I told you all of that. It's kind of been a rough time over here. Not really bad, but bad enough to make me feel bad. There was a tiff on Friday night and then yesterday morning I got all upset over some news he told me about his work. It wasn't even bad news. It was great news for him. I got upset because it got me started on how I don't like my job and I was jealous of him. I didn't want to come out and say it but I ended up telling him what was wrong. I could see the hurt in his eyes when I wasn't as happy as I should have been about what he was telling me.
Then I realized that I haven't been the greatest girlfriend that I know I can be. I've been all down in the dumps and taking it out on him. He's never said a word about it but I know I've been bitchy and naggy. I realized I needed to snap out of it and focus on being the best girlfriend I know I can be. So today, I'm going to focus more on what he says about work. I don't do a great job at that. And I should.
I'm going to make a better effort at this girlfriend thing. Even though my life isn't where I want it, I have him and he is more than willing to help me get there. I need to be more supportive of all that he does. All of my resentments lately have been about his job. And it has to end. I won't resent the work stories anymore. I won't pretend to listen as I absentmindedly scroll through my newsfeed and instagram.
I may not be perfect, but I can try. Everybody wants someone that will listen with enthusiasm and if I - the one person that has told him for over 4 years that I'll always be hear - can't/won't be that person, who will?
I may not be perfect, but I can try. Everybody wants someone that will listen with enthusiasm and if I - the one person that has told him for over 4 years that I'll always be hear - can't/won't be that person, who will?
4 comments:
All you both can do is be supportive! I tell John when good stuff happens at work but I don't get overly braggy about it because I know he hates his job. But he's still happy for me, even when I can tell he's a little jealous. It's only natural. But as long as you're aware of it, that's what matters, because you won't let it take control.
And that first photo is so friggin cute, I haven't seen that one before!
We all have our ups and downs. If he can stick with you through yours and not make you feel even worse about it, then he's definitely worth the extra effort that you're willing to give! :)
Every couple has some struggles! You guys are adorable together and with a little effort you can get through anything!
Good for you for realizing it, and making a conscious effort to be better. It may be hard but it's worth it.
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