I can't handle being at the size that I am. It just makes me so unhappy. I have a lot of clothes that I would love to fit better and I'm ready to wear them! I wanna look hot this summer. And for the rest of my life.
As for eating, well, I'm not going on a diet persay but I am picking better choices. I won't be eating out as much. And when I do go out I won't pick my favorite heart attack from the menu anymore. It'll be smething that's a bit better for me. That means no more shrimp and parmesan sirloin from Applebees. Now it'll just be a plain steak (i know, not the best but it's Applebees) with two sides of broccoli. No more mashed potatoes. And I'm giving up soda. I'm starting with just one a day but eventually hope to cut it out all together. My portion sizes are also going to be smaller. I've already started this and I can definitely tell a difference in how much I can eat. Last night I had a bowl of soup at work and I felt like I just ate a whole entree. I was stuffed. I realized that eating like the boy wasn't doing me any good. Ahh the joys of relationships right.
I'm also going to be exercising every day regardless of if I feel like it or not. I plan on doing Nikki's 30 miles in 30 days. I was talking to the fabulous Jordan about it and she said that I could even crawl if I needed to. lol. I thought "Do bar crawls count?" ;) I know that I can do this. And I hope to be able to run a mile straight through at the end of May. I know that I won't be in town from the 10-13 but I can make up for the days that I miss. And I also found this and want to try it too.
I know I can do this. And I'm super pumped about it. My goal is to lose two dress sizes by the end of the year. I know that's a long time but I make mistakes and I'm taking them into account here. So let's do it!