A Post

Hey kids, remember me? I won't be surprised if you don't! Sorry for being such a bad blogger. I'm about to tell you all about it. But I have a couple of fun things to talk about first.

I finally placed an ad on somebody's page! The wonderful Stephanie over at Bourbon and Glitter said that she would be oh so kind enough to let me have a little ad over at her space. I really like this girl! It was love at first Empire Records mention! Yeah, I'm easy. Hahaha. Kidding. She was so sweet about it though. She told me that I didn't have to post her button back. But I'm going to. If I can just figure out how. Anybody want to help? I'm not the kind to not return the favor. So....somebody anybody please help me out here! I really want to learn how to put her wonderful little button on my page.

My munchkin started school this week! This is her last year of preschool. I can't believe it. I know it's a stupid cliche but time does really go by fast! Next year I will have a kindergartner. And I learned that she's not really a munchkin. She's HUGE compared to the other kids in her class that are the same age. I mean taller and more stout. It's crazy. Kid needs to stop growing. Like yesterday. She doesn't have any problems with school thank goodness. She just goes right in and does what she's supposed to. Her teachers love her! That's enough bragging on my kid for now though. Just know....I love her.

I haven't been around a lot this week...this I know. I could have been but all I would have been doing is wining whining. I've had a pretty rough week. And I don't like to bother anybody with my problems because everybody has problems of their own. It's really kind of suckish to feel that way because it means I keep everything bottled inside of me. But I really don't want people to think that they need to worry about me because everybody has something else they need to worry about. People tell me all the time that it's ok, but it's not. Not in my opinion. I don't want somebody to think that I feel my problems are a bigger concern then theirs. The only people who really know how big our problems are happen to be ourselves and the ones up above.

I'm going through a huge funk. I've decided that I'm going to see a dr....I just really put that out there for the whole damn interwebs to read. Wow. I want need to be a happier person. Even if it's only for myself. I can't keep living miserably. I don't know how I've let myself get this far along, I wish I would have changed it along time ago.

So...one thing I will tell you about my shitty week is that my car broke down. AGAIN. Seriously. (yes, I say seriously like they do on Grey's Anatomy) It also broke down three weeks ago. Have I mentioned that I got royal screwed when I bought this car? Well, now you know I did. I pay an outrageous amount of money for it and it breaks every three weeks. And I'm not a person who can handle being without a car very well. I hate depending on others because I want to do what I want to do when I want to do it. And as I said earlier, people have other things they need to do than get me places. I feel like a burden. We took it to the mechanic two days ago and the mother fucker hasn't even touched it yet. I'm just a little irritated. Can ya tell? I don't like this mechanic anyway but it's the only one that I could use at the time. What's a girl to do?

I want you kids to have a great 3 day weekend though! When you work in the hospitality industry, there's no such thing as a 3 day weekend. Labor day...what's that? lol. Just another day to me. So...if you're having your last summer hurrah PLEASE have a drink or five for me. I could use it. See ya Monday....




This is honestly how we feel. Especially when everybody starts talking about having holidays off.



Security

Remember all those times I've talked about my ratty old hoodie? Do ya? Do ya??? Well, I finally decided to post about it! And there will be pics included!

I admit, I have a hoodie that I am dependant on. I can't help it. I used to have a blankie but my ex-step dad didn't like it and threw it away. Sad story. I believe that since I never got over having something to sleep with that I continue to use something. And I don't have to sleep with it, it just makes me feel better. There are times when I can go months without it but here lately, I've needed wanted it. So yeah, I'm 21 with a security hoodie. I do share it with my little person and dog though!

There used to be a back story to it but that doesn't matter anymore. I don't keep it around for that reason. I keep it because I LOVE it. It's sooooo soft and squishy. I use it as a pillow most of the time. I've had this hoodie since I was in 5th grade. So that's like ummm....11 years. That makes me feel old. That's half of my life.

Ready for pictures?

Here it is in all of its glory. Yes, all ripped and torn.

 

 

That's one of the sleeves. The blue stuff is paint from the skating rink.

They had just painted the window sill and I leaned on it to look out the window.

Apparently after 11 years this is what happens to a sleeve.

 

 

Yep, the part of the sleeve where your wrist goes is missing. I know.

I keep it in my purse. Laugh if you must. I know I am. lol.

 

 

The back. It sure as hell doesn't look as rough as the front does. Check out the seams though.

They're all worn away.

And ignore the mess please!

 

 

The hoodie pouch. Yeah...it's ripped.

 

The hoodie was made by Bugle Boy Jean Company. Remember them? I'm pretty sure they made some baggy ass sag ass jeans that you could only get at WalMart. lol.

 

And that's my happiness. I just adore it. And now I want to sleep with it.

But Boyfriend is laying on it. And if I ask him to get off of it he'll make some comment about

burning it. So, off to sleep with the little sleeve I guess!

(I planned this post fyi)

I'm not going back to bed at 730. I'm still asleep!

 

Happy Monday y'all!

 



My Happiness

Hey hey hey. I have a little time and I thought I'd stop in and ya know...write a post. Sorry for the delay. I need to quit apologizing. It's my blog. I can do what I want. But I know you all need the scoop on my life and I need to quit waiting so long between posts. One day, I'll be organized and able to have posts ready along with ya know...work, school, being a mom, life. Yeah, keep dreaming kids!

I've noticed that I've gained quite a few followers while I've been absent and so I thought that they'd like to get to know me too. So hello new followers! Happy to see you. And old followers, I'm always happy to see you too! Thanks for hanging through this with me. I thought that I would make a list of things that make me happy. That way people can get to know me! Good idea right? Right!

 

1. Sunshine

 

 

2. The color pink.

 

3. DVR

 

4. Target

 

5. Sweat Pants

 

 

6. Pinterest

 

7. Reading

 

8. Organization

 

9. The clean feeling after you get out of the shower and put on

clothes fresh out of the dryer.

 

10. My iPhone

 

11. Mi Familia

 

 

12. My ratty old hoodie.

 

13. Sleep

 

14. Fall/Autumn

 

 

15. Good Music

 

16. Suprises

 

17. A trip to the hair salon.

 

18. Blankets

 

19. Planners

 

20. Learning

 

21. Trixie.

 

22. Blogging

 

23. Reading your blogs!

 

24. Babies

 

25. Pumpkin anything (not coffee though)

 

 

this list isn't in any particular order. Just things that make me smile when I think about them.

I might do a second post. Not soon though. My idea is that when I can't think of something to

write about, I can come over to this post and find something. 25 ideas!

 

 

What makes you happy?

Birthday Shenanigans

What a weekend kids, what a weekend! I actually want to do a weekend update because I actually did something this weekend. What a shocker right. It is to me. And I really enjoyed it.

Sunday was my momma's birthday and somehow she managed to get a weekend celebration. Lucky lady.

Friday night we went to dinner with my gma (her mom) at a place that I used to like. It changed a lot since I had been there last and now it sucks. It's a Mongolian grill place and it used to be the bomb.com. Yep, I said that. However, now they added a buffet and took some of their grill items out. Disappointment at it's finest kids. After that we went to Freddy's Frozen Yogurt. I love over priced fro-yo. It's delicious! And I'm a child and had a child's size chocolate frozen yogurt with hot fudge in a cup. And I didn't eat it all. I was proud of myself! Hot fudge in a cup probably wouldn't be so expensive and would possibly taste a bunch better. Just sayin'. Unfortunately I suck at blogging and took absolutely no pictures of this.

After that you know what happened...the fun started! I took my momma to our local "dive" bar. I don't really know if it's a dive bar or just a bar bar. But it has beer so I smile. We got there and to my surprise there were actually people there! That doesn't happen often. And I knew these people. My uncle (dad's side) and my frrannn. I didn't ask her if I could blog about her so I'm not going to. But fun was had and I got my buzz going. Woot. We hung out for a couple of hours before she took me to a party! I felt bad about leaving her though. For real.

I went to a house party with my wife and Boyfriend. It was at one of Wife's and Boyfriend's friends' house. They're a married couple. After this, the night got a little blurry. See I bought a 20 pack bottles for us and we drank. And I did two shots of whipped cream vodka. Yummm. I hate vodka and whipped cream. Weird right. I did however get pictures of this night!

giving me the stink eye

do i look drunk?

Wow...look at his beard.

I know there were other people but again, not a lot of my friends know about this here blog so I won't post a lot of them. It just feels like an invasion of their privacy. Ya digg?

So I got an hour and a half of sleep after all the shenanigans and went home while Boyfriend went to work and Wife got to go back to sleep. It was still my momma's birthday weekend so we went to eat. I told you, I love food. After the stupid tornado took out half of Joplin our IHOP was gone. And it just came back...One WHOLE year and 3 months later! WTF took so long right? Yeah, I know. So we went to ihop. And they made the dining room soooo much smaller than the old one. I bet they will regret this. But my food was delicious! I'm so glad IHOP is back. After lunch we went to get our pretty on at Ulta. My god, I love that place. If you don't have one near you I'm so sorry! I will pray to the beauty gods that you get one soon. We needed our eyebrows done like no other! And my oh my this girl was sooo good at them. And at Ulta if it's your birthday you get a free eyebrow wax. BOOM! yep. So momma's was free. Yay for her! Then it was time for work. On very little sleep. Ugh. I told mom after work that we would go out. I lied. After work I slept. Like a log. It was great.

Sunday I got up and went home to spend time with my momma on her ACTUAL birthday. We went to eat with my gma again. This time at a little hole in the wall restaurant called Carthage Family Restaurant. Original huh. I'm not a big fan. But alllllll the older people of Carthage love it. I'm talking 50 to 100 year old crowd. The young kids dig IHOP. We already discussed that. lol. After brunch it was time for Walmart. Where I got some insoles for my work shoes. (they have helped a lot). Then my mother dragged me to Goodies. I'm not a big fan of this store because I never find anything for me but she loves it. However, this time she didn't find much either. Then it was time for work. And it was a bad night. I didn't want to be there. I wanted to be with my momma celebrating her. But my bills don't give a shit.

And that was my weekend! I know that I should have said it in a lot less words but I couldn't. So if you read to here congrats. Thanks =)

Poor boyfriend had his tooth pulled today and two root canals done. So...I'm gonnna go and see if he needs anything. He's smelled like dentist all day...ugh. I LOATHE the dentist. Just the smell gives me the creeps. blah.

One last thing, I started school today too. I decided too late in the summer that I wanted to be better at posting. So again, if I'm not here a lot sorry! I will answer all emails though. clovermarie214@gmail.com. Once I get in the hang of a new job, new classes, and spending adequate time with my family, friends and self the posts will be less sporadic. Promise.

TTFN!

My Womanifesto

I was crusing through blog land when I came across a wonderful post by Miss Angie about a womanifesto. And I thought it was pretty fucking special.

A womanifesto is your declaration of yourself about being a woman. Sorry dudes reading this!

wo·man·i·fes·to
noun \ˌwo-ma-nə-ˈfes-(ˌ)tō\

A written statement declaring publicly the intentions, motives, and views of its female author. May include themes of empowerment, independence, self love, consciousness, affirmation, and individual acceptance; your positive beliefs about yourself. Created to give self-described definition in regards to the innate beauty inside of every woman. Yes, even you.

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I  think that sums it up better than I could. If you want to know the whole story behind this you need to click the source button up there ^.

I'm Chloe.
I'm 21...
Feel like I need to figure it all out.

I don't believe you can love too much.

I believe.

Stars and believe are my inspiration.

I love love. 

Making people happy is what I'm here to do.

I am a momma.

Yes, a young one.

It's not hard in the sense you think, like money,

it's hard to be the adult.

I am curvy.

I am an old soul in some ways.

I am a crier. Happy, sad, hurt...I cry.

I'm overly emotional.

And that's ok.

I'm sensitive.

I'm a driver. I will drive for hours and not mind. It's a

place to find solace and search my soul.

I think I'm simple but maybe I'm complex.

I want to be loved for me.

I need to realize I will NOT be perfect.

And be ok with it.

I don't have to prove my beauty by what I wear.

I can wear sweats and be ok with it.

I am not modest. Deal with it.

I will worry less.

I have to.

I will never grow up.

I can be immature...

I know I have matured.

I need to love myself as much or more so than I do other people.

Not everything I do/say requires an apology.

I forgive too much.

I'm beautiful.
I'm smart.
I'm the only one like me.

And me.

I also thought that this would be a great Friday's Letter post. Boom! Way to be productive me. The post is a letter for everyone, myself included!    

What I Want

This post my sound like a soiled brat post...or it could really get you thinking. Idk. Depends on what you put on it I guess. I stole the idea from Thought Catalog. The catch is that you cna't really "think" about it. You're supposed to just type and go. No worrying about sounding like a brat or anything. =)

Here I go

To feel emotionally/mentally healthy. Easier said than done.

To see Britney Spears in concert.

For my daughter to just listen.

To have more patience.

To cure cancer.

For it to be fall already.

My own place to live.

To feel like I'm doing it right.

To not feel like the world's laziest/worst parent.

To be able to say what I mean and not be afraid of the consequence.

For everybody to have a big heart like mine.

For junk food to taste bad so I eat healthy.

The ability to travel at ease.

To make everyone around me happy.

I want to make my ownself happy.

There it is guys, a list that I compiled in about an hour. It's not much, but it's near and dear to my heart. I think that it gives a little insight to me. I like people around me to be happy. Yep. That's my main purpose in life. I've decided. =)

What things do you want? Tell me in the comments because I want to know. Or copy this post and make your own. Maybe I could start the new blog "thing"! hahaha. Kidding.

Love your faces kids.

Let's Get Down to Business

First person to name that douchey song wins! lol. If nobody can....then I will smile real big. Or cry because I'm the only person in blogland who likes to listen to douchey music. It's whatever. lol.

On a more serious note, I miss this blog being "mine." I got caught up in trying to make my blog something everybody would love and would want to visit. I tried to get more followers. Blah blah blah. You get where I'm going.

I want people to read this blog because they like what I have to say and want to know more. So I'm going back to being about me! There will be more posts with "depth". Which is really funny because I'm not deep. And less link ups! I do love me some link ups and will still do a couple...especially Pinterest Wednesday and Friday's Letters! If I do more though, I will also have to do a "real" blog post.

I just feel like this has gotten so lazy. That's not what I want at all. And if youre worried all my posts will be serious, they won't. but it won't be fluff either!

I have two important posts in my drafts that I need to finish and I can't wait for you guys to read them. I'm excited about the responses that I could possibly get.

I know that this post is kind of like yesterday's. Sorry about that. Just hang in a little bit longer.

Love all your faces kids!

Tuesday.

I meant to blog yesterday...I really did.

But I didn't do it =(. Blogging is important to me, but at the same time I kind of feel like it's getting the best of me. Not me, getting the best of it. Which I hate!

So...how do I not get tired of the whirlwind that is blogging? I want to keep doing it forever, (at least for now) so what am I going to do to not let it get away from me. I have no fucking idea. lol. I have severe writer's block going on.

Here are some updates about my life

- I really like working at Olive Garden, not sure if I like my job though. I'm not used to not knowing about my job, or being the new kid. It's intense for sure. I  keep hoping that I'll get used to it. I really want to serve though. I just love it. But Olive Garden is great! I can't believe I got lucky enough to work at a place that I really wanted to work at and that I love.

- My baby got a kitten. She named her cupcake. For now she lives at my grandma's. I forgot how awesome tiny baby kitties are. Now I want one.

- School starts in a week. I'm not really nervous anymore. I only have to go 2 days a week. I'm taking 3 online classes because I like them better. lol.

- Summer is almost over, and this Thursday will be the last week that I have to share my daughter. Thank GAWWDDDD.

That's all I can really think of right now. My life is boring. I'm not gonna lie to you guys. lol.

So...what would you like to see more of? I know I can be quite a bore. I really want to do a post with some substance instead of things like this. Leave me comments and tell me what ya wanna see!

TTFN..see you tomorrow!

Ketchup

No, this post isn't really about ketchup...but I bet it made you look and now you're here so you might as well finish reading. =) Thanks a bunch!

First thing first...I joined another swap and it was fabulous! I love swaps. They make my heart smile. And I had a fabulous swap partner. Cami gave me a fabulous package. Oh, it was a lip gloss and mascara swap! I think that what she sent me was way more awesome than what I sent her! lol. Here's my loot!

Neutrogena healthy volume mascara...pretty awesome!

Sinful colors nail polish in Hazard

Say Yes to Carrots organic chapstick. This is THE best chapstick ever kids.

NYC lip gloss

Wet and Wild lip gloss.

I love it all!

Thanks again Cami!

It's a little bit into August now...This year has gone by really fast! Since it's a new month...there needs to be a little bit of info about my goals. I know you guys love hearing all my negativity about them. lol. On a real note, I'm gonna link up With Miss Angie over at My So-Called Chaos for some monthly goals!



    July Goal Recap   Find myself a job- Accomplished! I got a job at Olive Garden and I coudln't be more excited!   Read two books- Accomplished! Ok, it was only 1 and a half but it's more than I've read in along time. I read Fifty Shades of Grey and loved it. Currently on the second book. That's my post about it...fyi.   Stay up to date on my school work - hahaha. I like to pretend. I got a B in that class though so I was doing something right. I think.   Be more active - Sorta. (ps, I'm only giving color to accomplished goals) When I started working I walked a lot more. Otherwise not so much. I love my couch.   Go trough the toys in the living room - Hmm. I don't know if I even thought about it. I see them but don't "see them". It makes the lazy even happier.   Drink more water - Yeah, no. My motto during themonth was more like I want/need beer/wine/liquor whatever. Stress kids. It's my best friend! (can you read sarcasm?)   My biggest goal was getting a job and I did. That's what matters most!    

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Understand my job a little better. When I don't understand something, I don't

want to do it or I don't like it. Makes me really hard on

myself.

Get mine and Teagan's clothes organized! There's no way that anybody can

see my bed because all the clean clothes are on it. I need to put

them away and sort out Teagan's. It's school time!

Blog 4 days a week. And be ok with it. I feel I need to blog everyday. And

that can causes me to freak out. Because....I already have so much

stress wearing on me. Grrr.

Clean my car out and keep it that way. I'm doing better already.

I live there. Seriously.

Save $10 from the rest of my paychecks this month.

Be more patient with my daughter. I'm sure I could be more patient

with everyone, but the sun doesn't shine out of my

ass to everyone either. Just her!

That's it for this month. And it's already 10 days in. Better get started. That's

really a goal with in itself. See how lazy I am??
Ugh, I hate it.

I promise to have an actual real thought from my head on to a post for you guys on Monday! I have a couple that I started but haven't finished. Better get that shit done I guess. Woohooo!

Source: someecards.com via Stacy on Pinterest

Hope you guys can't wait to be ashamed either!

See ya. 

Catch Up

Just wanted to pop in and say hey. I know I haven't been around much but so much is going on right now in my life and being at a computer just isn't working. I love my blog and all my loyal readers and I'll be back soon! I have sooo many things to catch up on here. Just thanks for staying by my side if you can during my little break. In the mean time feel free to check out this stuff of mine!

Pinterest

My Cause

this was my last post...partly why i haven't been here much

Being 20

Friday's Letters

129 page views. I know why. Do you?

that's all for now! Hopefully I'll have a post tomorrow...or maybe even later tonight. No promises though.

Sunday Social

It's my first Sunday Social around these parts. I just couldn't resist because it's about one of my favoritest things EVER! Oh, you wanna know what it is? Keep reading kids, keep reading.



1. What is your favorite fall activity?
Hmmm...that's a hard one. I love all fall activities, jumping in leaves, picking pumpkins, football for sure!

2. Do you follow a football team? If so which one and why?
I love the Dallas Cowboys! Yeah yeah, their qb is a waste of time and money, but the team that America loves to hate means a lot to me. My daddy raised me to love them. I've never known any different. It's a family thing. Plus they've got the hottest cheerleaders in the league! I probably posted this before somewhere but when I was little, I was gonna be a Dallas Cowboy Cheerleader! Still wish I could, but I'm not tall enough.

3. What is something fun about fall in your area?
The colors of the trees are awesome when fall gets here! And we have a festival called Maple Leaf. It's a week long celebration and it ends on Saturday with a huge parade!



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Not promising that this is it. But it's close to what it looks like! Don't get in a huff if you come down here and don't see this.

 

 4. What are your favorite fall outfit staples?

Cardigans, boots, and leggings. Yep, I wear leggings as pants. I'm one of those people.

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Source: google.com via Sarah on Pinterest

I want these!

5. What things are you looking forward to most about this upcoming fall season?

The cooler weather, the pumpkin everything, the comfy clothes, my new job, family time!, trick-or-treating, bon fires....I might as well just say all of it. I love fall!!!           

6. What is your favorite fall holiday? Traditions?

I love love love holidays. It's hard to pick. I really love Halloween because I get to dress up and Teagan loves it too. But....I get to feed my ass on Thanksgiving. So really both. For sure! And of course a major tradition is the Maple Leaf parade! Lucky for me, my wife lives on the parade route!

Halloween party last year.

If you love fall as much as me link up here!

My Cause

This isn't gonna be your run of the mill "Happy Friday and have a fab weekend post." My Friday has been terrible since I left work. Weird how that works.

I got terrible news that shattered my world today. Somebody close to me has breast cancer. My heart raced after I typed that. I'm not supposed to be scared, but I am. It's stage 2. Not too bad. I'm more than scared though. I'm pissed, hurt, spiteful and many more things at different times. I can't decide if I want to cry or drink so many beers I pass out before boyfriend gets off work.

This person already has soooo much going on in their life right now. I don't understand why the powers above did this. I don't get it. I'm so mad at my God. It's amazing how mad I can be at someone I've never met. But I'm pissed.

And I'm so scared to lose this person. I know I shouldn't say that but this is me being honest. And honestly I don't know what I will do without them. I do know that they are strong though. They will fight. WE will fight. Fight as individuals, fight as friends, and fight most imporantly together, as a family. This cancer won't fucking win. It fucked with the wrong people.

I'm sure I will cry more. I'm sure that many will cry more. But deep down, we will still be strong. I didn't use to know what my cause was, but now I do. My cause is to destroy cancer. Breast, lung, brain...it doesn't matter.

This is the second time this year that somebody I'm extremely close to has told me that they have cancer. I won't lose either of them. I won't. So if you would join me in a prayer, that would be great. A prayer for them, a prayer for me, and last but certainly not least, a prayer for anybody who's had to hear those words "You/I have cancer."

Source: via Heidi on Pinterest

I said My Oh My!

I'm reading 50 Shades of Grey =). And I am sucked in by every word of it. I loooovvveee it. I don't even know why. I just can't get enough. Maybe I'm a perv. It's ok though.

It does have a lot of grammar errors though. And that shiz drives me nuts! I hate Twilight and really thought this was going to be terrible since it was " Twilight fanfare." But it's not even close. I know I have grammar errors and that makes me a hypocrite.

It's a great indulgent read. I'm not taking much from it but I am indulged in Mr. Grey. He looks like this guy in my mind. Yes, that means it's who I want to play him in the movie. I can just imagine how awsesome he would be.

Alexander Skarsgard

And I want a Mr. Grey. I don't care what he's into but the way he loves Ana just melts my heart. It's true absolute love. I see a love story. Of course. I've told you guys I'm really a hopeless romantic. It's complete bullshit and sucks but I really am.

Maybe I'm ok with it because I had read reviews where people listed every negative thing with the book. And I knew that it wasn't going to be great. So that's why I love it. It's like Magic Mike, you have to realize it's gonna be bad but love it for what it is. Terribleness and all. Hahaha. That's fucking deep guys. Wow. Like remember that shit because I doubt it happens very often. Ok, I have another post where I'm getting kinda deep coming up this week. Whatever! Off point here, but that might be a good thing.

I love 50 Shades of Grey. There, I said it. If you disagree and think I'm gross or something that's ok. Just try and love me through it. I give 50 Shades of Grey an A-.