Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Scary Scary

Remember when I told you I hated fb but that I would never ever leave because it has a death grip on my heart? Well, this little blog of mine now has a fb page. It's not all pretty yet, but we're getting there. There's a little social media icon over on it and like options. Just do it.

And now for some real business. I have nothing to write about. De nada. And then I realized I have a billion projects started and dammit I could finish one. So let's get to know me.

I was going to update my 22 before 22 but I just re-read it and it's dumb. I don't like it. What a difference 9 months and becoming a better blogger makes. So none of that. And I'm not making a new one because I turn 22 in 36 days. Yes, I'm keeping count. More on my birthday later. We've got 36 days to talk about it!

I know that most of you weren't my cupcakes when I posted this. Did you catch up? Good...The second thing on that list is to 3 legitimate fears and how they became fears.

Number one biggest fear in the history of fears are frogs. I'm terrified. Legitimately can't breath/panic attack/ kind of fear when I see one of those fuckers. I hate them. This fear stems from my mom. She's always been terrified of them because when she was little one jumped on her face and clung to her. Ugh. Can you imagine. It was scared she was scared...fuck that. Boyfriend lives out in bfe and has a pond in his back yard. They love to come around in the summer. When they're on the sidewalks I stand completely still and don't breathe. I figure out how to get the fuck around it without that bitch moving. Most of the time I walk 200 feet out of my way and then I'm on frog look out all night. We had one in our basement one time when I was in junior high, it was camping out in front of our dryer. Mom and I both needed in there but couldn't do it. I had to call a friend who lived down the road to come get it for us.

My second biggest fear...flying. UGH. I've never been on an airplane before. Ever. And if I didn't want to travel and go places, then I wouldn't ever care. I'm terrified of them crashing. Like wtf, they say you're less likely to die in a plane crash than a car accident but fuck it seems like every day they're talking about how this plane went down and la-de-fucking-da. Terrifying. I can guarantee that before I fly, I will indulge in a couple of xanax, as much liquor/beer/alcohol I can get into me without feeling terrible.

And third...I'm afraid of people. Not just any type of people but people who might be planning to do something bad. I know that sounds weird. I've grown up in the generation of shootings. Schools, malls, movie theaters, etc. Shit freaks me out. That's part of the airplane fear too. That somebody is going to hijack it and kill us. I have a vivid imagination and this is all part of it. So I guess it's not a fear of people, just a fear that somebody is going to kill everyone. Most of my fears resolve around this.

There ya have it cupcakes, I'm a freak. I would be scared out of my mind if I was on an airplane with a frog and somebody started shooting.


Jamie said...

Flying is far less scary than it sounds! Do it!!

Jordan said...

Flying really isn't so bad! The older I get, the more nervous I get BUT I still enjoy it. I swear once you're up there, it's smooth sailing.

Brandy said...

I feel like we have a little bit of a kindred spirit. I read your list & I'm a self-proclaimed cry baby...legit. Almost anything can make me cry, good, bad, happy, sad, funny, etc... lol
I watch way too much TV, I'm 24 & still don't fully know what I wanna be when I grow up, except Happy! ;)
& I cannot bring myself to leave my hometown & family, but also wonder what it would be like to live somewhere else.
As for the fears, flying & people..I can relate..
I'm so scared of crashes, or hi-jacking.
Only I have flown. I said I NEVER EVER would, but I did. I swallowed my fear and flew to Denver, CO (from Atlanta) with my now mother-in-law to get my bf (now my hubs) from college. It was 2004 & I was 15 & terrified. She gave me half a valium (shhh, lol) & it helped. I will say the views were gorgeous! And turbulence is about the worse part of my experience, and it wasn't quite as bad as I expected...but that could have been the valium...
That being said, I want to go to Cali, NY, Vegas & London (just to name a few), but, aside from money, flying is slightly the thing holding me back. lol
People, well you just NEVER know how someone is, and that's a scary thought. I don't want to be enjoying my time doing something just for someone who hates a person in the same building to think they have to take out everyone. No, Talk about being forever paranoid!
My biggest fear is death, which means I have lots of fears since there is so much that can result in death. Ugh. Damn you, fear!

Stephanie said...

Ok, so I havent read the full post yet hence why you're about to get two comments from me but just to let you know, the facebook link just redirects me to the main page. It may be because you haven't published the page yet or because the system takes awhile once you did hit publish.
Either way, I will be liking it at soon as it's up, promise! Back to your post now.

Stephanie said...

I have the same fear about people, it's so ridiculous what this world has come to.
You know I'm a terrible flyer! I do it only when I have to, and I do get all hopped up on a xanax and vodka mix and then I'm in bliss. I don't actually have a fear of flying though, I have a fear of falling, crashing, exploding and burning. Totally different.
Not that that made you feel any better.