Bye 2012...

I hate this year. I don't have a phone to ring the new year in with. That means I don't get to take pictures, I don't get to text everyone happy new year, I don't get to do shit. And I'm pissed.

See, Friday was Boyfriend's work holiday party. It was fun. Minus not knowing anybody and Boyfriend disappearing half the time, but I still had fun. Until that time...that time when my phone broke. Shattered, demolished, it's bad. I had to wait until today to go get a new phone from AT&T because it's the first time I've had time and those mother fuckers told me that they don't deal with the insurance claims. If I would have known that I would have fixed this shit Saturday when we got home. Now, I have to wait for who knows how long.

Plus, it's snowing/icing...I HATE snow and ice. On the last day of the year.

So December 31,2012...you can fuck off and I'll be glad to ring you out tonight.

I was going to get my hair done today...but my pictures were on my phone on my pinterest. RARRRR.

I'll be drinking my sorrows away tonight kids. And then I work a double tomorrow. 11 am until close. My manager hates me. And if my phone comes I won't get it because I'll be at work.

Hope you all have a wonderful New Year's Eve though. And please...drink ten one for me. Love your faces cupcakes!

Check out my resolutions here and here.

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Personal Resolutions

First of all...this might be a little long. I'm sorry! I need to see this in writing so I can do what I say I will. I'm even going to have this printed and with me at all times. Here we go...

- I'm at my heaviest right now. I will loose weight this year. Yes, I do say this every year, but being at my heaviest, I'm going to do something about it. I'm done with this. I asked for a gym membership for christmas this year and I got one! I will start to exercise. I have to. My goal is to be two sizes smaller by June. That's 6 months. I can do that. That's plenty of time. I'm going to eat better. I'm still going to eat out, I can guarantee it. However, I won't do it as much as I do now. And my choices will be healthier. Yep, sometimes I'll cheat because dammit, a piece of chocolate cake is too hard to resist. My portions will be smaller. Hello kids meals! Plus I get a free toy - Score!

-  I'm going to become more organized. For my daughter and my mind. I'm tired of feeling lost and almost drowning because of our disorganization. I'm going to have monthly,weekly, and daily to do lists. I'll use one of my planners to keep track of this! See, having an addiction to paper/stationary/business supplies is a good thing. My monthly goals will still go up on here. I'll break them down to smaller goals for the week and complete them as a daily goal. Sounds a little confusing but I know what the hell I'm talking about. That's what matters.

Get more financially stable than I am now. Ha!,  I've got a ways to go. I'll miss shopping.
 - Pay half of my credit card off. I would like that to happen by June as well, but November is ok too.
 - Put $30 a month into my savings. I have the money transferred every pay day but sometimes I have to take it back out.

Get my ass in a different vehicle! Or at least make mine cheaper. I'm tired of shit being wrong with my car all the time. If I can pay less for it though, I can save for a down payment on another car. All I've got right now is my trade in value (I'm upside down already) it's not very much.

Do a load of laundry a week. I know that this doesn't sound like much but I hardly ever do laundry. It's terrible I know. It's just so time consuming when you have as much as I do right now. If I could get it all done it wouldn't be that bad.

Buy birthday cards for those close to me at the beginning of each month. My grandma does this and I've always admired it. Who doesn't like mail, especially when it's not a bill. People will feel great and so will I, I love giving people things and I love cards.

Have "me time". That might sound a little selfish, but really it's not. Once a month I will do something by myself for myself that I makes me feel good. Hair, manicure, pedi, shopping trip, who knows! I will get up early enough to have quiet time in the morning. I'm going to follow this schedule for sure. I just don't know if I will add more time to it. =)

Read one book a month. At least. From my book list because someday I'd like to get it done. I'll do another post about it in early January. Who even remembers what I put on that shit.

Family Resolutions

Make a photo book for 2013. I'm going to try and make one of 2012 in the beginning of the year.

Start the little's birthday interview/first day of school book.

 Have a girl's night with mini me once a month. Dinner where ever she picks, then a fun activity for us to do. Sounds great!

Blogging Resolutions

Blogging Resolutions

This little blog will be getting a makeover. It's been a year since this little blog started and now since I've enjoyed it so much and know I will continue...I'll be shelling out some bucks for it to look pretty!

I'm going to start buying ads! I would love to sponsor a few blogs this year. I'm ready to start getting to know my bloggy friends more and networking. Getting my name out there and making friends? Hell yes please! Plus I get to help out some of my favorites. =)

I'm only going to be participating in one swap a month if I do any. I have to make sure it's actually one I want to do. I'm going to get better at them. And having more than one to remember is some hard damn work for this girl. Hopefully later in the year, I'll be ready to tackle two. The only way I see this happening is if I've already joined one and I see another one I absolutely love and I've thought for a couple days about it.

I'm a lurker...I hardly ever comment but I read daily. I know how much I love comments so I will be commenting more! =)

Till That Day We Meet Again, In My Heart Is Where You'll Be My Friend

I've been dreading this post since I decided that I was going to keep this blog. I've been dreading this day for a year. A long year.

A year ago today, a great friend passed away. It was unexpected and it makes my heart hurt every day. Every day for a year, I've thought about this girl. I've thought about how beautiful her smile is/was, how much I miss it. I've thought of the glorious laugh that she had. It was contagious. Her love and beauty was contagious. She was the sweetest person I had ever met.

To say it's unfair that she left us a year ago today would be an understatement. It's more than unfair. Words can't describe how I feel. How we all feel. She was only 21, just 9 days short of 22. A beautiful soul. Truly. I still remember getting the news like it was yesterday. I ran out to my car to smoke a cigarette and text her. I said "Chelsey, please text me back." And she never did. The last time I talked to her was on Christmas when she asked if we wanted to come to a party but we didn't go. The last time I saw her was a week or two before on a Saturday night for boyfriend's birthday party.

Writing this post is killing me. Today I have to work, then I'll be at my dad's for Christmas with him. But it will still be there in the back of my mind. I've given myself stuff to do to make it easier to get through the day. We'll see how that goes. After Christmas with my dad I will be going to visit her. And I'll remember the good times and laugh. And I'll remember that terrible day and cry. But most of all, I'll remember her and all the beauty that came along with her.

A friend of hers wrote this poem for her funeral. I know you can't really read it but the picture is beautiful. 

Actually 2011...silly camera. 

The last time I'd see that face. Little did I know.

Her 21 birthday party. That face was a face of a great time. She hated this picture. But I cherish it. 

The Day After

I hope y'all had a wonderful Christmas! We sure did. I just wanted to stop in and say hello. I miss your lovely faces. I got everything I wanted and then some. And the little had a great Christmas too.

I got to spend time with my awesome family and it was just great. I wish every day was like Christmas, minus stuffing my face and presents. I really just want the family time. =) I mean, I love to stuff my face but I don't think that this would end up well for me.

This isn't very long but I don't have much to say. This week is killer. lol. My baby blog has been neglected for almost a week and we lost a reader =( Oh well, you can't please everybody.

Boyfriend got the new Batman for Christmas and we just put it in. Must go watch.

I'm back to work today. I'm jealous of everybody who's off until next year. Enjoy your time guys!

I Don't Know What Cha Heard About Me

I don't have shit to talk about. How unreal right? I have a dozen posts drafted but they are planned for after Christmas. So, yeah. Here's 10 fun facts about yours truly!

One - I love boobs. My boobs, your boobs, her boobs...-but not his boobs. Seriously though. I love them. When I get drunk I like to ask to see boobs. I annoy people to the point that they flash me and then I'm happy. lol. Some people are willing though. So now you know, if I was a guy I would be a tit guy. Yep.

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Two - I hate foods that have a weird texture. Mainly fruits and veggies. They make me gag and throw up. It's terrible I know. The worst texture is a fucking banana. UGH. I hate them. The smell, the texture, the taste, just ugh.

Three - I like to smell things. Especially paper. Books, mail, etc. Love it. It's weird. At night you're likely to see me with my hoodie up to my face, I'm probably smelling it. I'm weird. I can't help it.

Four - I have a huge fear of the dentist. I hate going. The smell of the place gives me the chills. I haven't been since I don't know when. Someday I will have to have dentures I'm sure. I know I need to go see the dentist soon but I won't go unless it's a dentist who practices sedation dentistry.

Five - I like to be naked. Whenever I can. (sorry dad) I'm sure my neighbors have all seen my ass because I'll run out to my car in a long shirt with no panties/pants. I've gone with nothing wrapped in a blanket. I have no modesty. I don't care if people see my ladies bits, I just don't want them to see my chubby belly. I used to really think about visiting a nudist colony. Then I decided I may not have an issue being naked, but I don't think I want to see everyone naked.

Six - I've swallowed more lip rings and the end of tongue rings that I lost count and forgot. I don't even know what the number used to be. True story.

Seven - I enjoy throwing/giving stuff away. It's like a cleansing thing for me. I just don't do it often. Kind of an oxymoron (haha, remember when "oxymoron" was a cool thing? Or is it just me?) I don't do it because I'm lazy but while I sit on the couch and watch mindless tv, I think about it and really really want to.

Eight - I'm super sensitive. I know I come off as kind of a bitch most of the time, or at least I think I do. But people really do get to me all the time! It's quite irritating and that's why I use my sassy attitude a lot. Because people just don't fuck with me. (At least that's how I feel in my head. Could be totally different in real life)

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Nine - I love lists. It's the fastest way to get my attention. Love to look at them, read them, and make them. Reading them is my favorite. Short, long, detailed, grocery...any of them.

Ten - I like to pretend I'm from the south. lol. I love southern etiquette and the way they do things. Living seems the most important to people in the south. And they have great accents! I was born in the wrong part of the country. I've never told anybody that before.

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Silence and Support part II

Silence and Support

I started writing this post on Friday night after I got off work and had reflected on all of today's terrible terrible event.

 My heart hurts immensely for those babies lost today. It's not fair at all. those poor innocent children lost teir lives because of some asshole parent. Who can be that...  i don't even know how I want to describe this man because I'm just at a loss for words.

When I read this about tragic event I had a hard time not going to pick up my little from her school and spend the rest of the day with her. Debating all day long about whether or not I should tell her about what happened. I decided that I wouldn't. But then I debated if this was good or bad parenting all day. Ultimately, I still don't know if it was a smart move but I didn't go get her because I just shouldn't have to have her be scared of going to school. She loves school and is so excited for kindergarten And I shouldn't rob her of that joy. Like the children who were at that school had to go through. It's such a tough parenting moment to be in - never knowing if your decision is the right decision for your child, but a decision that you can't take back after it's already been made. 

It's so unfair for those babies. Those poor, sweet innocent little children that just don't understand why. The ones that watched as their peers died around them. The ones who passed and what their poor little minds were wondering why them. They were all so scared. I can't imagine. 

Today I saw in Erin's blog she had a post on how bloggers are going to help. I think it's great and I fully plan on doing what is asked. Here is what is going on.

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To the Blog World and Anyone Else who Wants to Help,

Yesterday, tragedy struck so many of us in ways we did not foresee. An elementary school and small town in Connecticut was shattered by a mass shooting. We knew we wanted to help and we came up with this:

On Tuesday, December 18th, there will be a blogger day of silence. 
We will post the button and that's it. Please try to not post anything else that day if possible.

We are also raising money that will go to an organization in the memory of this tragedy. The organization is called The Newtown Family Youth and Family Services. Here is the official description of the support service we are donating to: 

"Newtown Youth and Family Services, Inc. is a licensed, non-profit, mental health clinic and youth services bureau dedicated to helping children and families achieve their highest potential. NYFS provides programs, services, activities, counseling, support groups and education throughout the Greater Newtown area.

ANY DONATIONS MADE TO NEWTOWN YOUTH AND FAMILY SERVICES WILL BE DONATED DIRECTLY TO THOSE EFFECTED BY THE SANDY HOOK ELEMENTARY SCHOOL SHOOTING."

Please visit THIS PAGE to make your donation.

We can't imagine how they must be feeling, especially this close to the holidays. We would love for you to spread the word on your own blog, Facebook, Twitter, etc. Let's make a difference and use blogging in a positive way. Thank you in advance for participating.

Love,
The Blog World 

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Lounging

Aww kids, what a good weekend (besides the unfortunate acts that have occured, more on that tomorrow). Boyfriend and I were off on Saturday and Sunday together. What an awesome thing that never happens! Saturday we celebrated his birthday. And this is what we did.

I got so excited to try this that I forgot to take a picture before I took a bite. Excellent cake pop though. I got it from starbucks.

Yep, just like the cat we lounged on the couch all day long! In our lounge clothes at that. I had a great Saturday. I hung out with my momma in the morning, because boyfriend wanted to sleep in. He normally has to work every Saturday and be there at 9 so this was something nice for him. My momma and I did a little shopping, then we watched tv. I then hung out with boyfriend all night. I don't care what anybody thinks of our nothing birthday celebration, it was just what we needed! 

Sunday my momma took us out for dinner for boyfriend's birthday. We went to Mucho Mexico. His most favorite place ever. It's a Mexican buffet that has some bomb ass enchiladas and wings. Then boyfriend took me and my mini to Braums for some ice cream! All in all, it was a wonderful relaxing weekend. 

Happiness for me right in this picture.

I look odd here. I don't think my boobs really stand out that far.

Reason that I look funny in above picture. More to come on that later.

And this one is my personal favorite

Not great of us but us nonetheless. 

Have a good week cupcakes. 

The Big 3-0

My hunnie is the big 3-0 today! Yep, he's 30. This is the third birthday I've spent with him! They just keep getting better and better.

Three years ago, I met a charming man-boy and decided to use my awesome skills to get to know him. haha. No, he was really charismatic and charming. That's why I thought he was so cute! And kinda smartassy.

Now I sit beside a handsome 30 year old who I've watched grow into a wonderful family guy. He loves my little so much and I love our family. But he's still charismatic and charming. And even more of a smartass -.-

I can't wait to spend more birthdays with him. And give him shit for not being in his 20's anymore. It's fun. I didn't realize how young I was until he was in his 30's. I was feeling like an old ass for being almost 22. Hahaha.

But seriously...happy birthday babe! Love you so much. Can't wait to hang out with you all day. xoxo.

*why are we drunk in all the pictures of us??* 

My goal for him this year is to get more pictures of us when we are sober. He needs to get over it. 

Let's Get Christmas-y

We're gonna get Christmasy so if you're a scrooge or a grinch sorry!

First things first I joined Autumn's second Blog Friend Package Swap. This month's theme was Christmas ornaments! I knew that I had to do it because I love Christmas and making presents for other people. I was partnered with Holli and this girl got me awesome stuff! She got me down to a t! It also helped that we enjoyed the same Christmas stuff. Here is the fabulousness that she sent me.

Aren't they adorable! I think she did great. 

Last night the little diva had her school's Christmas program. They do it every year and sing the same songs every year. Thank goodness my kid is cute and sassy other wise this would have been boring. Here are a few of the pictures I took. Unfortunately they were all taken with my phone because my camera was at boyfriend's house.

Here she is in front of her Grammy's tree (my gma). That crazy lady has presents under that bish already!

Here she is singing to her little heart's content.

Look at that face. She was sassing me from a far.

We've decked our halls too! I've wanted to show you guys for awhile but haven't had the energy to post. But I'm all good today. In my house we all have our own trees. Yes, it is kind of selfish but yes it is fun. 

This is mine. I adore it to pieces. It's very original. I know that it's kind of crooked which pisses me off but nothing I can do. Pieces got thrown away. But it's beautiful!

Here it is all lit up. So much prettier!

This is the wreath of all wreaths. I love it. And because of this I will always have a wreath up for everything! And I have so many i want to try and make.

This is just a tree. It's cute.

My mom's silver tree. With her favorite kind of ornaments on it. 

And last but certainly not least...the little's tree. Over decorated and everything! And it's the same height she is so she decorated it all herself. This is where my sentimental ornaments hang. Ones that my momma and I have collected while I was growing up.

And our stockings. From left to right momma's, mine, little's, and Trixie's.

Mine and Teagan's don't really match our personalities so I'm on the look out for new ones. 

And I'm getting boyfriend one this year. Since stockings are kinda my favorite part, I decided I needed to!

And there you have it, our decor. There's some more but it's just figurines and such. I could have gotten a lot more done but we decided that we don't need to have the crazy holiday house. But don't worry...when we get our own it's on!