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I was absent yesterday due to being an emotional stressed out crazy lady girl. I was supposed to start school yesterday but couldn't because mini me had pink eye. I got all dressed and ready, (ie showered, did my hair, put effort) yesterday then got a call from mini's school saying her eye was pink and crusty please come get her. BLAH. I was pretty bummed out. I don't even like school all that much but had convinced myself this was going to be a good semester. Here's my outfit

Do you know how hard it is to get to go to the bathroom alone sometimes? And when I'm in the bathroom taking pictures it's even harder. I won't ever be a fashion blogger. Fo sure. I look awkward. 

So I wasted this good outfit on a lazy day. Oh well. 

That's all I want to talk about it. There was more shit that irritated me but it's not worth talking about. On with some pins!

Source: powerofmoms.com via Chloe on Pinterest

One Hundred Dollar Allowance...thinking about modifying this for my life.

Source: alocalchoice.blogspot.com via Chloe on Pinterest

Tomato soup macaroni and cheese. YUMMM.

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Cat's right.

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I'm doing this. Every week of the year, you save that set amount of money. A dollar the first week, two the second...etc. Doing this.

Source: theglitterguide.tumblr.com via Chloe on Pinterest

Pills of glitter. Just what I needed yesterday. Pop it open and have glitter everywhere. 

Source: etsy.com via Chloe on Pinterest

I want these.

Source: thechive.com via Chloe on Pinterest

True story. Dogs, cats, and children.

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I need this.

Source: Uploaded by user via Laura on Pinterest

Yep. True story.

Letters for Friday

It's been awhile since we've done Friday's Letters soooo why not?

Dear Boyfriend, I don't like the x-box. I love you though so I put up with it. Please find a new toy. lol. Sunday better not be spent attached to that thing. I'll karate chop you. 

Dear Paychecks, Why can't you multiply before you hit my account. I'd like you more than I already do. Pretty pretty please??

Dear Teagan, Girllll...you missed three days of school last week, didn't have school on Monday, missed school today, and you don't have school next week. Jeeeez! It's a good thing it's only preschool.  Oh and I will miss you while you're gone next week. =( Have fun seeing auntie though!

Dear Work, Let's just get through tonight and the double tomorrow. PLEASE take it easy on me. But make it go by fast. I'm off Sunday and I'm ready to relax.

Dear Sunday, I say relax but that isn't going to happen. I've got a lot of homework to catch up on. So please go by rather slowly k! 

Dear Thanksgiving, Ahh you're less than a week away. Come on and get here because I need an excuses to do nothing. Not even blog. Can't wait for you! I get to see my family and munch out! What's better than that? Oh and then you're followed by a day of cheap cheap shopping. Hells yes. 

Dear School, I'm so over you. So over you. Blah. 

Dear Weekend, I wish I could be more excited about you. True story. 

Dear Blog Friends, I love your faces! You guys rock and I love hearing from you. Hope you all have a wonderful weekend full of excitingness that doesn't include working! Kisses!

I couldn't find the friday's letters button. but this takes you there!  I think this is appropriate today. But just remember I do love him and this is a joke!

Source: someecards.com via Miss Angie on Pinterest

Glad I'm Not This Guy

Ever have a day when you wonder why in the hell you got up this morning? Not really a bad day, just more irritating and ironic than it needs to be. Yeah, that's my day today.

I can't find a babysitter for the second day in a row. This hasn't been a problem in the whole 4 years of my daughter's life. And all of a sudden this week it's an impossible mission.
I realized that I was late turning in an assignment because I forgot about it...and it was a group assignment so I was late for the whole group, not just myself.
I realized that I had forgotten to take a midterm exam online...It was due last week. So I go to take it and in the middle of it the internet shits out on me. Which in turn locks me out of the exam.

I actually had a funny post that I was going to do today. Now I'm just irritated and it doesn't sound like such a good idea. Hopefully I can post it tomorrow.

I really want to call into work but I'm not working all weekend and I'm the closer tonight so I shouldn't. I can never justify calling into work. As hard as I try. I have a guilty conscience. She's a bitch.

Only 2 more work days after today. I can do it. I can do it. I can do it. And then after those 2 work days I have 3 whole days off. And Maple Leaf!

I'm gonna go eat something. It's 1 pm and I've yet to have lunch. So I'll see your pretty faces tomorrow with hopefully a better outlook....It has to be. =)

                                                         

Source: oddee.com via Veronica on Pinterest

                                                         Hahaha. This made me feel better =)

How About Some Letters

I took a break yesterday. I just am in a funk and I can't get out of it. It's irritating me. I don't know what the problem is. Anyway...how about some letters


Dear Wife, OMG I love you. I've been thinking a lot about everything that's going on in my world and I'm so glad that I have you here. I know that things could change at any given moment so I'm enjoying every minute we get together. **more on this in another post**

Dear Self, you think this is where the depression sets in after the mania? Because we've been happy all week but starting yesterday night it's slowly dwindling. Pep it up girl. And you've lost a couple pounds so cheer up buttercup!

Dear Readers, thanks for the uplifting comments from the few of you. It means a lot. If I haven't gotten back to you yet, I'm really sorry. I'll get there. Promise. Stick by me through my blogging funk please. I'll try to be as entertaining as I can.

Dear Boyfriend, I love you. I did miss you today. I already have your anniversary present picked out. Booom! I'm excited.

Dear Auntie, sigh. I know we're going through the same feelings right now. And again, I know that things could change at any given moment. Love you. Just know that.

Dear Saturday, I'm ready for you. I'm ready for your day off on the weekend. That excites me. Plus a wedding...free food, booze, and endless love? Yes please!

And last but not least, Dear Sweet Sweet Friday, I'm glad you're here! It's payday, and getting paid every week is pretty effing cool. Too bad the check is all gone. Effing car. But thanks for your arrival. Glad to see ya!

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A Post

Hey kids, remember me? I won't be surprised if you don't! Sorry for being such a bad blogger. I'm about to tell you all about it. But I have a couple of fun things to talk about first.

I finally placed an ad on somebody's page! The wonderful Stephanie over at Bourbon and Glitter said that she would be oh so kind enough to let me have a little ad over at her space. I really like this girl! It was love at first Empire Records mention! Yeah, I'm easy. Hahaha. Kidding. She was so sweet about it though. She told me that I didn't have to post her button back. But I'm going to. If I can just figure out how. Anybody want to help? I'm not the kind to not return the favor. So....somebody anybody please help me out here! I really want to learn how to put her wonderful little button on my page.

My munchkin started school this week! This is her last year of preschool. I can't believe it. I know it's a stupid cliche but time does really go by fast! Next year I will have a kindergartner. And I learned that she's not really a munchkin. She's HUGE compared to the other kids in her class that are the same age. I mean taller and more stout. It's crazy. Kid needs to stop growing. Like yesterday. She doesn't have any problems with school thank goodness. She just goes right in and does what she's supposed to. Her teachers love her! That's enough bragging on my kid for now though. Just know....I love her.

I haven't been around a lot this week...this I know. I could have been but all I would have been doing is wining whining. I've had a pretty rough week. And I don't like to bother anybody with my problems because everybody has problems of their own. It's really kind of suckish to feel that way because it means I keep everything bottled inside of me. But I really don't want people to think that they need to worry about me because everybody has something else they need to worry about. People tell me all the time that it's ok, but it's not. Not in my opinion. I don't want somebody to think that I feel my problems are a bigger concern then theirs. The only people who really know how big our problems are happen to be ourselves and the ones up above.

I'm going through a huge funk. I've decided that I'm going to see a dr....I just really put that out there for the whole damn interwebs to read. Wow. I want need to be a happier person. Even if it's only for myself. I can't keep living miserably. I don't know how I've let myself get this far along, I wish I would have changed it along time ago.

So...one thing I will tell you about my shitty week is that my car broke down. AGAIN. Seriously. (yes, I say seriously like they do on Grey's Anatomy) It also broke down three weeks ago. Have I mentioned that I got royal screwed when I bought this car? Well, now you know I did. I pay an outrageous amount of money for it and it breaks every three weeks. And I'm not a person who can handle being without a car very well. I hate depending on others because I want to do what I want to do when I want to do it. And as I said earlier, people have other things they need to do than get me places. I feel like a burden. We took it to the mechanic two days ago and the mother fucker hasn't even touched it yet. I'm just a little irritated. Can ya tell? I don't like this mechanic anyway but it's the only one that I could use at the time. What's a girl to do?

I want you kids to have a great 3 day weekend though! When you work in the hospitality industry, there's no such thing as a 3 day weekend. Labor day...what's that? lol. Just another day to me. So...if you're having your last summer hurrah PLEASE have a drink or five for me. I could use it. See ya Monday....




This is honestly how we feel. Especially when everybody starts talking about having holidays off.



Tuesday.

I meant to blog yesterday...I really did.

But I didn't do it =(. Blogging is important to me, but at the same time I kind of feel like it's getting the best of me. Not me, getting the best of it. Which I hate!

So...how do I not get tired of the whirlwind that is blogging? I want to keep doing it forever, (at least for now) so what am I going to do to not let it get away from me. I have no fucking idea. lol. I have severe writer's block going on.

Here are some updates about my life

- I really like working at Olive Garden, not sure if I like my job though. I'm not used to not knowing about my job, or being the new kid. It's intense for sure. I  keep hoping that I'll get used to it. I really want to serve though. I just love it. But Olive Garden is great! I can't believe I got lucky enough to work at a place that I really wanted to work at and that I love.

- My baby got a kitten. She named her cupcake. For now she lives at my grandma's. I forgot how awesome tiny baby kitties are. Now I want one.

- School starts in a week. I'm not really nervous anymore. I only have to go 2 days a week. I'm taking 3 online classes because I like them better. lol.

- Summer is almost over, and this Thursday will be the last week that I have to share my daughter. Thank GAWWDDDD.

That's all I can really think of right now. My life is boring. I'm not gonna lie to you guys. lol.

So...what would you like to see more of? I know I can be quite a bore. I really want to do a post with some substance instead of things like this. Leave me comments and tell me what ya wanna see!

TTFN..see you tomorrow!

My Cause

This isn't gonna be your run of the mill "Happy Friday and have a fab weekend post." My Friday has been terrible since I left work. Weird how that works.

I got terrible news that shattered my world today. Somebody close to me has breast cancer. My heart raced after I typed that. I'm not supposed to be scared, but I am. It's stage 2. Not too bad. I'm more than scared though. I'm pissed, hurt, spiteful and many more things at different times. I can't decide if I want to cry or drink so many beers I pass out before boyfriend gets off work.

This person already has soooo much going on in their life right now. I don't understand why the powers above did this. I don't get it. I'm so mad at my God. It's amazing how mad I can be at someone I've never met. But I'm pissed.

And I'm so scared to lose this person. I know I shouldn't say that but this is me being honest. And honestly I don't know what I will do without them. I do know that they are strong though. They will fight. WE will fight. Fight as individuals, fight as friends, and fight most imporantly together, as a family. This cancer won't fucking win. It fucked with the wrong people.

I'm sure I will cry more. I'm sure that many will cry more. But deep down, we will still be strong. I didn't use to know what my cause was, but now I do. My cause is to destroy cancer. Breast, lung, brain...it doesn't matter.

This is the second time this year that somebody I'm extremely close to has told me that they have cancer. I won't lose either of them. I won't. So if you would join me in a prayer, that would be great. A prayer for them, a prayer for me, and last but certainly not least, a prayer for anybody who's had to hear those words "You/I have cancer."

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Monday Can Suck It

Yeah, I had a case of the Mondays today. Go me! And I just realized why. I started. ugh. Yes, I went there. I'm a girl, girls pms. So fucking what? lol.

I noticed that I've been whiny/tired/emotional hot mess for a couple of days but just thought it was from my weekend. WRONG! I love aunt flow and her random bullshit.

I was going to post about my wonderful weekend and show you guys a bunchhhh of pictures. *side note I totally wrote signatures instead of pictures* But then I realised that I hadn't even done a part 2 of my vacation.

I might be a shitty blogger here recently. There's a terrible outbreak of hatefulness here lately in blog land. WTF is up with that? One reason I decided to stick with blogging was because the happiness and closeness of the frienships bloggers make. Now it seems a lot of people just want to be mean to each other and it makes me sad. :-/. That's why I haven't been around much. Oh, and I had a bad ass house party on Saturday night.

You guys it was the bomb.com! Hahahaha I've wanted to say that for awhile now. I will have a post about it tomorrow I promise. Don't count on it being super early though. I have to make it up to my little person for being such a bitch today. I feel bad so it's gonna be a day for her. I guarantee that I'll be at the park in this ridiculous fucking heat. EEEEKKKKKK! Oh well! If it makes her smile, it's ok.

Alright guys, that's it for now. Just wanted to have a little chat with you. I'm gonna go hang out with this handsome dude who just brought me a beer! Peace....

hahaha. I'll leave you with a picture of my party. It was good =). That's the handsome man

biting on my sweet new 'stache glasses. Bahahahaha!! It's a little embarassing.

I wish this was a joke...

I bought a swimming suit today.....for the first time since I've had my daughter. 4 whole long years. It's a size _______ . (I'm not ready to tell you what size I am). The same size that most of my non-junior size clothes are. And in some places....it was too small  =(. Wanna talk about being discouraged? Because I'm way up there.

I have a problem with my body. Not gonna lie. I know it's my own fault and I need to change my ways and there are no excuses. It's just not that easy. For all of you who are scoffing "Oh, this bitch needs to get over it and just do it.", well fuck you.

See, I have a terrible body image of myself. I see a different person when I look in the mirror. Everybody says that I'm not that big, but it sure does feel like it. I look 5 months pregnant in my head. I know that I have huge boobs so nobody really sees how flabby I am, but I do. And I feel gross. I think about how my stomach looks all day, everyday. It's always in my mind...most of the time the front, but sometimes in the back. But I still know it's there.

Ok, don't get me wrong, there's nothing wrong with being bigger if you're comfortable in your own skin. I think it's wonderful when women can be proud of being a size that society considers "plus-size". However, I can't get behind that for myself. Please don't think that I think every woman needs to be a size 4. I don't feel that way AT ALL.

I don't like healthy foods. I know I should suck it up and eat them anyway...but who wants to eat something they really don't like?? I can't stand lettuce. The texture, taste, smell, and everything about it is just disgusting. And texture is a big thing for me so I'm not a fan of a lot of veggies or fruits. So I have to try portion control. It's not the easiest. Nobody likes to be hungry...and portion control can leave you feeling that way until you get used to it. And exercise....I LOVE LOVE LOVE exercising. But for some reason, I just can't get myself motivated to do it.

I always look at the size of other women. And I always compare myself. More often than not, I'm feeling "Ugh, I wanna be tiny like her." It's not on purpose, it's just what I do. And it's not just once a day. It's all day. Every where I go.

I don't really know why I wrote this post. But I feel better admitting it. I need to make myself feel better. I know I do. I just wish that there was an easier way. I could do lipo....hahaha kidding! But sometimes I think about it ;).

So yeah. I'm not going to ask you what I should do. I know what I need to do. And I'm definitely not looking for "oh, your fine and cute and stuff" compliments. Thank you, but no thank you. Encouragement is welcomed though! lol.